Kiki

SIGH what a week! My kitty KiKi died on Thursday (2-17-11) and it was awful- she had a huge tumor in her abdomen. She had been losing weight like crazy and she looked so frail and small...  we had to put her to sleep. I didn't even get to say goodbye! my mom did it while i was at school. the worst part is, i tought about going in the bathroom to kiss her before i left for school that morning but we were in such a hurry... i feel terrible. i miss her. but my mom didnt think she was going to get put to sleep that day, she didnt want her to suffer any longer...

she's been through a lot with my family! we got her back when we lived in San Diego, California (back in 2000 probably.) she was about 12 years old... we got her when she was an adult cat. pretty calico... fiesty! i liked that about her (: she made funny noises when she puked LOL which sounds weird, but it's like her trade mark. she was a fun cat and i will miss her terribly...

Bye Bye Birdie, my High School's winter musical, will be debuting this Thursday! It's crazy i feel like there isn't enough time. We were supposed to practice today, but there was an awful snow storm. great. we needed that.

Also, yesterday, i went to Madison, Wisconsin (the capitol!) to protest with my friend Katie about the Union disbanding the new Republican governor is trying. It was cool how so many people got together on something they feel so strongly about! It affects us directly; teachers benefits are going to be cut. stuff like that! fighting the man!

also- we're going to san diego this spring break! right around the corner! im trying to lose weight for that... hmmph. see my pathetic other blog.

anyways- it's going to be so weird seeing my old home...! we're going to stay at a hotel on the beach and drive in our old town. im kinda bummed my sisters can't come... like it really bothers me. i want to talk about memories with them but nope. stupid school/jobs. i'll take a lot of pics i guess -sigh-

Alzheimer's

is one of the most tragic genetic disorders out there...

The Wave

2011 = Fresh Start

Woo! I was jumping up and down and doing the whole counting down thing as the new year of 2011 fell upon us. I am thrilled though! I'm happy to be young in times like these. The year will be fun hopefully and good things will come, I know it. This year I also have a feeling will change me. A lot. 


I'm ready for it. I want change. I want to feel different and new. I don't long to be older. I'm enjoying every year I have and try to stay away from lusting to be a certain age older than I am. It isn't worth it! Time goes by at the same continuous speed no matter what we do, you can do anything to stop, slow, or speed it.


All you can really do is accept it. And enjoy the time you have. It's frustrating- in this book I'm reading called Prozac Nation, the memoir is about a depressed girl Elizabeth who only sees the dismal end of things- the eternity of death and the shortness of life. While this may be true, it's more positive to focus on the here and now: what's happening. What's here in front of you. How lucky you are to thrive in this very moment. 


sfhjkhasfj anyways! Happy New Year, ya'll! I'm thrilled, personally.

oh hey!

Well. I've decided on making this my main 'blog'. I was using live journal- but it's such a ghost land nowadays! I used this one for  a project in my damn history class. It's crazy- 2011 is creeping up in a matter of days! Ready or not here it comes! My heart is bracing itself for new experiences that will eventually mold me into an adult. I'm transitioning- I'm still young. So I will use this here blog to document for my future self to remember how I was in the past.

Right now- I'm excited to start living. WON'DRN AND WON'DRN WHEN WILL MY LIFE BEEGIIINN??!! Tangled <3

p.s. I've gotten my bags cut yesterday. Mostly because mememolly is my idol. <3